Saturday, October 1, 2011

A Goblin/Troll of average human height

Watching this Graphic Novel of Watchmen definitely puts me into a dark mood. Realistic? I think about a quick conversation I had with Indigo so long ago and yet still so fresh. Forgive me as I blame time for any in-discrepancies.
Me: "Am I an evil person? I have seen into my soul and I know the depths of darkness it contains."
Indigo: "No more evil than the person that chooses not to look and/or ignores their own darkness."
I likely just sunk my head, her comment made me feel accepted and normal.
I read an article some time since that helped me to formulate the following thought.
I try not to dwell on the darkness within and instead take comfort and solace that I haven't acted on it.
Then again, it seems I haven't acted on much, accept maybe an outwardly meekly polite and cheerful survival.
At least since the summer of 96...
Hopefully a more positive me will return when I wake tomorrow.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Feeling Goodish

Today has been one of those days when I shifted into a "good" mood and my thoughts have been spinning with possibilities. Those days have been rare and maybe thankfully so. The symptoms to the start of a manic episode. Likely, I will just sleep, and the essence of everything good about how I feel will slip away and scatter into other realms of my existence. I don't really need that plethora of thoughts and possibilities anyway. I mostly need to just continue with the priorities I already have set in motion and with self-discipline, robotically labor away at the tasks that are taking up my time and space untill I have more time than tasks.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Have you ever woke up to realize that you just had sex with a psychotic elite assassin special agent type, wonder why she was at your family reunion and really wish things hadnt ended so uhm prematurely? Yeah, me niether.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

catching up on things

after intense action sequences, like a brawl, a car chase, possibly other things depending on budget and setting

"what government branch do you work for?"
"oh I don't work for the government, they haven't let anybody who's supposedly 'bipolar' work for them in years."
"Who do you work for?"
I toss the spent projectile weapon in the back seat. "I try not to work for anyone but I like to think im working with several people. Think of the government as a way more decentralized entity with different cells operating within it and those cells are often in cooperation and competition with each other as well as corporate cells and other more personal startups, like me."
"I still dont understand especially what this has to do with me."
I grin, "That's part of what we are trying to figure out, just to survive."
...
As I felt the pull and began phasing between realities, my memories of the one I was leaving was fading much faster than my ability to consciously control the reality I was entering. I tried condensing my memories into the smallest form I hoped would carry over...
Colony
Memory might paint it as lunar colony because of the view of the earth, but this might be misleading with the apparent "Tunnel in the Sky" technology that gets used.
Seemed like a typical joint effort bubble dome colony. There was military funding, corporate sponsership, private sector individuals and just enough labordriven curious pioneers to to tame and design the thing into ... an eventual fiasco.
One section inside the bubble was meant to look more earthlike in layout and architecture, reminisent of a downtown area with retail stores, apartments, and even single level houses. I suppose the grass was likely faux turf but maybe some onboard scientist had created a strain of grass to not only grow in the local soil but also manage to survive with only the occasional street lamp for light.
This colony was slated as an eventual hub for tourism. The icebergs of the planet were being melted as a local source of water. The now liquid water was stored in what was called the holding tank. Maybe your thinking that the tank was just that an enclosed tank of purified water. Maybe if it had been enclosed, pure, and possibly only melted as needed we wouldnt of had the problems we did.
arhg patience running thin, ok MARINE Biology takes on a whole new meaning with swordfish branded and enhanced in the holding tank by the military faction. The tank is actually more like a big pond/small lake. Something goes wrong with the ice dethawer, the town is flooded. As the water levels rise and the inhabitants try to survive, they realize the holding tank was much bigger than they thought and the military was testing submarine technologies along side of splicing a variety or marine life, theres that pun again. After raiding some of the stores to gear up for this semiaquatic survival story. Im sure some people died. Most of the remaining ones were faced with the prospect of either drowning or suffacating in low atmosphere outside when someone opened a Ramsbotham Jump window draining out all the Marine life and possibly some even more alien ones, right over an ocean on Earth. Altho, I am sure the survivors were greatful for being alive, their unanimous response was, "EARTH?!?! You couldnt of chose anything else?"
Letting the giantly branded militant swordfish out was sure to get the press eventually. Like that water the confidential nature of the militarys involvment on the colony was leaked. We on the colony lost our concern for the publicity of the stunt as soon were battling bugs. Apparently the eggs were in the water. The larvae could pupate into practically any form. The first few forms were very buglike, one was more of a blob, and then there came the human form. The agenda now for the scientists was seeing if the these new beings were indistinguishable from any other human child.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Ashi Tonga

or is it Ashtanga? maybe this vision of the tribesperson poking me and yelling Ashi Tonga is really a communicay for Ashtanga?

Ashi Tonga, jedi

Monday, July 18, 2011

a need to coalesce and focus

I was pondering how mentallity frustrating its getting to have all this working knowledge of other dimensions, realities, and/or possibilities and yet always seem to have such a lose grip on how to put that knowledge to work in this particular plane. Maybe it's not so much the "how-to" but the sheer willpower and organization needed to implement the plan or even pick pick wich plan to follow....

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Dream Architecture

Some places I have never been to in real life and continue to visit only in dreams. To be in the same place more than once in a dreamscape is so awkwardly familiar.
I love how corridors appear where they logically shouldnt, small cracks can become hallways that lead to apartment buildings. Staircases can be in improbable positions that lead to the unlikeliest of places where can one can meet the unlikeliest of people.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

temporal anomalies... still

Lets rewind to the stress inducing overcrowded home full of bratty kids and invasive bossy adults. Their lack of peace and privacy. Mom's overbearing exboyfriends. The inability to escape. A stress feeding powerstruggle.
The next week. A certain computer lab that was running existance simulations. Maybe the computer went haywire and thats why its existance blurred the lines of which "dimension", as in plane of reality, it was on. It began arcing and "fixing itself" becoming more capable to commit "Weird Science". Since I was its user it had an affinity for me. It created CD's out of thin air. Then it took on a human form. Why it chose the particular friend it did Im unsure, but she left and went to the under reconstruction zone down the street. I noticed the cd's it had created had become a stack of paper in their shape. Everything that it instantly manifested had ost its material form and was just paper. I was worried she might have the same fate, so I went after her.
The construction men seemed to be clearing the debris of scrap metal that was there and discussing plans for a desgner restaraunt/club, with a retail store on the other side of the parking lot. I think time must have lapsed because instead of the unfinished building I was in, it shifted to the semi-finished club complete with people in cocktail lounge outfits.
Since time had shifted I decided to check the basement level again. An awkward bondage scene. I say awkward because it was hard to tell if the people that were bound wanted to be. It was as if they were mesmerized into it. It was also weird because the bindings werent be operated by anyone but bound and moved like some poltergiest. Then I felt the pull of this sticky human flytrap. I easily fought it off and went back up stairs.
But now the cocktail lounge patrons were no longer chic and classy, they were zombies! The building was less finished as if I had moved backwards through time. I grabbed a pipe that seemed to be left there from construction and started swinging my way throught the mass of zombies. By the time I had reach the other side of the room to the open doorway my arm was tired and wished I had a staff. Something lighter with a longer range. Although it wouldnt matter too much I still havent gotten proficient with the staff yet.

and last night school, Pat the Bus Driver, college, dorms, Rome, GA. Dad.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

So much to catch up on.

Theres the trailer parks I've been frequenting. Mostly on the prowl for young meat.
Theres that top secret sub that keeps going on missions in the deep water around the artics for rescue missions, marine biology and of course cryptozoology.
There was a talent competition game on the PS3 that had a mix and match Marvel, Capcom, etc. team builder. It created the storyline as one mix and match the characters. Interesting to watch the Teenage Mutant Ninja turtles breakdance and breakup to mix up with other heros and characters and then come together again.
Will and I were at a huge hospital complex and i know I had a multipurpose for bing there. We interviewed a potential drummer chick that really just wanted a ride to Chicago to watch a band. I was infiltrating the staff area to work my way down the more secretive complex where angels and mutants were being held. The government type agency that had them was attemtping to coerce them in working for them. the ones that didnt agree were subject to additional "tests" that could prove fatal. Not only was there sadistic examinations but also an arena that few came out of. Of course, I came and went altho I took a few blows, scrapes and bruises. It was freeing the others and trying to figure out how to shut down what went on that I was fixed on.

Cross-Posted as it should be

Java had a Drag competiton he was doing. While we were waiting for his number to go on we dimension hopped and were waiting in line for soemthing to do with the car, registering it or java getting an interdimensional liscense IDK. The line was too long so i explainged some "safe" jump betweens so java could make it back to his competition. I think i was desging toys to match some game/animation I had been involved in. there were smaller toy versiosn in the back of the SUV/Jeep thing I was driving trhoguh dimensions but larger robotic versions in this dimension. i made it back to competition after eating dinner at a communal kitchen and swapping numbers with some peopel in line. I was trying to figure out if java had went on yet...
Back to reality-ish. Dangit I dont think SHIELD saved my progress. I was gonna say I didnt think I knew java was really planning on doing a Drag show competition soon, or that I would join SHIELD and get an Acura MDX. An all terrain SUV/Jeep vehicle doesnt seem within my budget right now